a long time ago, a close friend once told me that i have an aversion to familiarity. its true. i love living for the risk of things, taking that leap of faith, the explosiveness of life. three years later, i still find myself struggling to settle, longing for a new unknown to explore. everything just feels so old, i find myself hardening to things left and right. perhaps thats the reason i drown myself in a demanding, hectic life, yearning for something fresh to invigorate me, though in the back of my mind i know the next thing i find can only be temporary. i cant help it. i have a very fiery, passionate character, and i cannot help but throw myself headfirst into everything i do. its a strength that is just as much a flaw. sometimes i feel that the only thing that awaits me is apathy.

i cant remember what it feels like to experience something for the first time. what it feels like to be surprised. ive come to expect the worst from everyone, from everything, but hope for the best. i cant remember the last time i was honestly surprised by something. i miss the simple joy of discovering new things, enjoying small surprises. i miss the feeling of accomplishing something so great, you know that it'll take a lifetime to forget. i miss the feeling of euphoria that just erupts inside when something good happens to you. i cant remember what it feels like to be driven, what it feels like to have the rush of adrenaline flowing in your veins with every step you take, what it feels like to live your life with passion and purpose.

however, life moves on, with or without you. you do, or you dont. you wont, or you cant. we do what we think is right, what we think is good, no matter how old it gets. sometimes you even have to lie to yourself to keep yourself going. suck it up kiddo, its life.

                                                                                                                    alpha iota class

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haha..time to get a job..and be chisety

jacked from nance's profile..

the question, "why do children suffer?" has no answer, unless it's simply, "to break our hearts."  once our hearts get broken, they never fully heal.  they always ache.  but perhaps a broken heart is a more loving instrument.  perhaps only after our hearts have cracked wide open, have finally and totally unclenched, can we truly know love without boundaries.

                                                     - if i get to five

heh i was walkin around my sister's apartment when i tripped on this funnylooking book. i picked it up and read the cover. this excerpt caught my attention

"Unfortunately, most of us have little sense of our talents strengths, much less the ability to build our lives around them. Instead, guided by our parents, by our teachers, by out managers, and by psychology's fascination with pathology, we become experts in our weaknesses and spend our live tryin to repair these flaws, while our strengths lie dormant and neglected."

is that not often too true? our weaknessess have often become the focus of our efforts. both sides can be argued, but its interesting how trends reverse themselves after overcompensation.